For The Love Of Cupid!!

I am still waiting for you – he said

For the love of cupid! Why would you wait for me?

I love you, I love you, I love you… I Love

How could you love me? You don’t know me!

I know that I love your smile; I want to wake up with your smile.

For the love of cupid… is this karma? Why is this happening? I swear if I get my hands on cupid I will take away his arrow! Ok so I get that you love me, I feel flattered, I feel honored that you feel that way, still don’t think you should be waiting for me. I don’t think you should be waiting on anyone. I am not coming back, and even if I do I don’t feel the same way you do and it’s not going to change. I really like you, but as a friend. I don’t mean to sound like a bitch, I just think you deserve someone who loves you and wants to wake up with your smile too and it’s not me. Why is life doing this to me? Testing me by having everything happen to me all at once? (Breathe, just breath)

I love you - he insists and I will wait for you, I don’t care how long it takes.

My life would be so much easier if I could say “I Love you” back, but I can’t. I don’t feel it. I can’t lie about it; I can’t pretend to love someone I don’t. I don’t know why this is happening, why you fell in love with me and I did not. Is this karma?

I don’t know.

I don’t think is fair, I don’t even know if I am capable of loving anyone again. I don’t know but I think it has to do with trust. I can’t trust. I have trusting issues. Trust is love. I got hurt so bad I don’t know if I could trust again. I don’t know how to open my heart and love again. I would like to love again; I just don’t know if I can do it.

What will it take to love again? What do you need to hear to love again?

(Breath, just breathe.) Don’t wait for me, promise you won’t wait for me. You should be out there having fun, loving everything, everyone you can get your hands into. You are amazing, you are handsome and you deserve to be with someone who sees how wonderful you are.

Now I love you even more! - he said smiling at me

For the love of cupid!  What is going on here?  Who is to blame for this? Why me? I am just a human, a warrior searching for the truth.

(Funny how we try to stop someone from loving us like it is possible.)

It’s been a long time; I just hope he is not waiting for me.

This is not about us. This is fiction any similarity to real events is pure coincidence. When somebody loves you, he won’t make you wait and she is going to want to wake up with your smile that I know for sure!