For The Love Of Cupid!!

I am still waiting for you – he said

For the love of cupid! Why would you wait for me?

I love you, I love you, I love you… I Love

How could you love me? You don’t know me!

I know that I love your smile; I want to wake up with your smile.

For the love of cupid… is this karma? Why is this happening? I swear if I get my hands on cupid I will take away his arrow! Ok so I get that you love me, I feel flattered, I feel honored that you feel that way, still don’t think you should be waiting for me. I don’t think you should be waiting on anyone. I am not coming back, and even if I do I don’t feel the same way you do and it’s not going to change. I really like you, but as a friend. I don’t mean to sound like a bitch, I just think you deserve someone who loves you and wants to wake up with your smile too and it’s not me. Why is life doing this to me? Testing me by having everything happen to me all at once? (Breathe, just breath)

I love you - he insists and I will wait for you, I don’t care how long it takes.

My life would be so much easier if I could say “I Love you” back, but I can’t. I don’t feel it. I can’t lie about it; I can’t pretend to love someone I don’t. I don’t know why this is happening, why you fell in love with me and I did not. Is this karma?

I don’t know.

I don’t think is fair, I don’t even know if I am capable of loving anyone again. I don’t know but I think it has to do with trust. I can’t trust. I have trusting issues. Trust is love. I got hurt so bad I don’t know if I could trust again. I don’t know how to open my heart and love again. I would like to love again; I just don’t know if I can do it.

What will it take to love again? What do you need to hear to love again?

(Breath, just breathe.) Don’t wait for me, promise you won’t wait for me. You should be out there having fun, loving everything, everyone you can get your hands into. You are amazing, you are handsome and you deserve to be with someone who sees how wonderful you are.

Now I love you even more! - he said smiling at me

For the love of cupid!  What is going on here?  Who is to blame for this? Why me? I am just a human, a warrior searching for the truth.

(Funny how we try to stop someone from loving us like it is possible.)

It’s been a long time; I just hope he is not waiting for me.

This is not about us. This is fiction any similarity to real events is pure coincidence. When somebody loves you, he won’t make you wait and she is going to want to wake up with your smile that I know for sure!

PICASSO

When love came knocking on my door I did not recognize him at first. He was so abstract like a Picasso painting I thought it was a joke; I was surprised to see love standing there outside my door. What a surprised I told him, I haven’t seen you in a very long time. Don’t just stand there. Do you want to come in? I asked.  

So why are you here? if I may ask

I am here for you - said love

Do sit down in the couch. Can I offer you something to drink?

Excuse me, why are you here again?

I came for you, I would like you will come with me.

I raised my eyebrows felling surprised.

It is so nice to see you; I told him and thought to myself: I love him so much, but it’s too late now, I can’t just leave everything, this empty house. Everybody has left and I am all alone, still, I can’t just leave, can I? I am hiding from the sun?

Love is sitting there quietly smiling at me like he knows something I don’t.

Love is always so wise.

You can’t hurry love, but you can’t put it on hold, it knows better.

Love will always find you no matter how hard you try to fight it, hide from it or try to scape it, love will always find you. Last night I dreamt of you. You came knocking on my door and I let you in. How can you not let love in? I opened my heart and now it’s filled with love. Not what I had in mind. I keep busy. They say things happen for a reason, like I am going to wake up one morning and know exactly why. I think I just did. I woke up and things that did not make sense are starting to make sense now. It feels like everything is connected and the only thing that really matters is love.